With words that burned like fire, I rekindled our love
And the woman that he desired, I became
As the full moon watched us from above
–Two untamable souls, crushed, burning up in flames–
The words that burned like fire became colder than ice
And my heart stopped beating when I froze inside
Too weak I became to take another fight
against the coldness of my heart just to make it beat again
and in his arms I laid so he won’t know I’ve changed
but my heart wouldn’t beat again, and I couldn’t pretend
I couldn’t close my eyes and sleep in peace
and insomnia crept up my skin
lest my mask would fall off my face.
so I went to paint another portrait
just in case he looked at me and couldn’t find for my soul a trace
he’d remember how I was like and what I used to be
even though I’ve changed now
He could at least fall into a reverie
when distant my soul would be though my body is still around
Is it too selfish that I don’t want him to leave
even though in disgrace and hatred I’ve drowned?
Is it selfish that even though I don’t want him to rescue me
I want him to stand, watch me getting lost in a place where I could never be found?
Is it selfish from me now, or was it selfish from him when he asked
me to change and make my heart beat for him as long as my breathing lasts?
It’s just not fair that even though I’ve tried, he still has the right to walk away
And if you asked him why? He would say that I’ve failed
to make my heart beat for him
to be so humane
O, how I wish for him to be the one to blame! But I know it’s not his fault.
O, how long will I long for those days to come back again?
Now that my heart has changed, now that I’m cold again, I know I won’t long for anything I’ve lost
Sorry, love, but it was your mistake to fall for a selfish heart.